motivation

"10 YEARS CHALLENGE" My crappy old photographs

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Welcome to this new article full of nostalgia and crappy pictures!  During this not so blessed time of my life that was being a gothic teenager (I mean come on guys, this is the WORST period of our lives ever!) I was sad and angry at the whole world, and especially myself (and also really ugly :D ). I think creating those gave me a space to express myself as an introvert. 

There was no instagram, no Facebook, but all the edgy dark artists were on Deviantart back then. That was I think the first community that allowed to share images and it was a draft of social medias as we know now! Even 15 years ago, there were already the likes, the followers, the comments. I remember a few superstars of Deviantart and remembering not understanding how these people got the attention. I remember being lost in the middle of so many creators doing their best. I remember I had no idea how to use Photoshop, and there was nothing online to help me out, to teach me how to master the tool. I remember not knowing how to use the settings on my cheap camera. I remember lighting my setup with my desk light and using my high school homework as a white background.

I also remember that all of this didn’t matter, I was simple experimenting, expressing myself and having fun doing it :) 

(I have to admit I was super proud of this one)

(I have to admit I was super proud of this one)

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When it was a trend to put your signature on every photo (in case of someone stole it you know :D )

When it was a trend to put your signature on every photo (in case of someone stole it you know :D )

Exploring awesome abandoned building in Paris, being chased by the guardian, good old times!

Exploring awesome abandoned building in Paris, being chased by the guardian, good old times!

A long time ago, when I was still photographing people with clothes on, even in the bathtub :D

A long time ago, when I was still photographing people with clothes on, even in the bathtub :D

Does this count as my first self portrait?

Does this count as my first self portrait?

I spent 3 hours one night photographing a feather, trying every angle possible, for absolutely no other reason that I wanted to

I spent 3 hours one night photographing a feather, trying every angle possible, for absolutely no other reason that I wanted to

“Dad can I borrow your tool box?” (notice the love I put into creating the tiny paper squares)

“Dad can I borrow your tool box?” (notice the love I put into creating the tiny paper squares)

This one makes me cringe SO MUCH :D I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT IT ahahahah

This one makes me cringe SO MUCH :D I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT IT ahahahah

I cringed so much over some of them but I am not ashamed, I started somewhere, and you can’t go full creative fine art awarded photographer from nowhere : you have to start, you have to learn, you have to find what your style is, you have to find out your vision, you have do do shitty pictures, thousands of them! This is not a race, this is a journey :) And I think it’s fun to me to see that I was already attracted to dark edgy stuff, experimenting a lot, and telling stories with my photographs! Because this is the foundation of my style now :) 

So I am writing this for you guys, I am doing this post to encourage you to not let go, whatever you are creating. If you feel you are there now, just starting out, and you are flooded by photographers, musicians, videographers, artists, doing a better job, who have so many followers than you, and you don’t understand why. Just keep it up, learn your craft, and if you are passionate, you work will improve :) Do it for you, enjoy the journey, because it is all worth it. We are not all born with a natural talent, being discovered at 17, and being a superstar right away. Everyone loves a good success story « look at this amazing pretty photographer work and she is only 18 and doing it with her sister’s cracked iphone! ». This kind of sensationalism is sending the wrong information to the world and make us feel like if we are not discovered early, then we are not good enough, and we will never be succesful. This is so untrue, and the vast majority of us spent years and years building our crafts. 

It is just like your kids drawing : you are not looking at your 3 years old nephew and say « this is shit, your composition sucks, your choices of colors are awful, and what were you even trying to represent? And also you won’t get any present this year because Santa Claus doesn’t exist! AHAH YOU DESERVE NO BETTER! » That would be TERRIBLE. Nope on the contrary we are in awe in front of their imagination, creativity and also because they don’t give a fuck about the rules and that makes some pretty awesome imaginative results. We can tell the technique is not there yet, but their imagination and the experimentation are limitless! So maybe we can look at our early work like this? And try to treat ourselves with kindness instead of being the mean uncle? 

And who knows where I would be now if I hadn’t start with these?

And just as a comparison, this is my latest picture (and the most challenging editing I’ve ever done!) :)

And just as a comparison, this is my latest picture (and the most challenging editing I’ve ever done!) :)

How do you feel about your early work? Did you think you were going to be a rockstar at 19 and got disappointed it didn’t happen? How do you deal with the pressure of feeling your work is not good enough? I find the whole topic fascinating so don’t hesitate to open a conversation about it!

Lots of love et plein de bisous <3

How to conquer FEAR

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A long time ago, when we had to survive in the wild, fear was a good thing 
(flower : not scary. Snake : SCARY) 
So fear is nice because it wants to protect us from the mean stuff outside so we don’t die. Right? (especially when living in Australia, plenty of snakes and spiders and crocodiles and sharks EVERYWHERE) Problem is, sometimes it’s not as simple and our instincts are weird : in reality most spiders won’t hurt you, but the view of one of them in your bedroom is rarely pleasing! And most mushrooms looks kind of appetizing but you would kill your whole family if you cook an omelette without knowing which one are edible. 

 
So our instinct is weirdly programmed, and it reacts to our emotions sometimes with the brave idea that it is going to save us from a mortal danger when most of the time what we have to do is talk in front of a crowd! (if you ask me I’d have the snake please)
 
Fear can manifest itself into weird anxiety, and it is here with us, it always will be, and everyone feel it at some point, for different reasons, at every point of of our lives, in any places, at any stage of our career, we will never totally get rid of it (although if you did, send me an email at pauline.goyard@gmail.com and I swear I will gift you a photoshoot so we can spend an afternoon talking! TELL ME YOUR SECRET) 
 
Fear is also the best marketing strategy ever, and it sells EVERYTHING : weapons, drugs are a classic, but also cosmetics, fashion, sugar, cars, insurances, political ideas and religions. I could probably write a whole book on this (depressing/fascinating) topic! The most important thing we need to remind ourselves is to identify when something tries to get into your « fear system » to sell us something. If an advertising is promising us eternal youth, love, style, safety, a beautiful family, sunshine everyday, and ALL WE HAVE TO DO is buy this car/shampoo/insurance/ vote this guy, JUST RUN. Oh yeah right I just described probably almost every advertising ever created… (did I mention that I was working in an advertising agency before being a photographer? hum)
 
We all fear the same things : to grow old, to get sick, get lonely, to be a failure in every aspect of our lives, AND EVENTUALLY TO DIE ALL BY OURSELVES from a disease and/or a terrible accident (on a rainy crappy day) 
I make fun of this but I feel every one of this thing deeply in my heart and soul, I am terrified at the idea of loneliness, of aging, of dying, all these craps. And I too would do anything to get some relief from this. 
 
It is all about what we decide to do with it : Do we let it rule our lives? Do we let it drive the whole way hoping it to take the right road for us? Do we let it take the most important decisions of our lives? Do we let it choose our career? Our friends? our relationships? Do we let it raise our children?  Do we let it elect our governements and run our countries? (spoiler alert : we do) 

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What happens when we let fear decide for us?

Sometimes it scares the crap out of you with terrifying stories implying your whole family dying. 
But sometimes it is more subtle it just tells you that you shouldn’t text this girl/guy because she/he will never accept to have a drink with you, because why would she/he? you are scared to feel the pain of rejection again, because it hurts. So you stay at home and watch Netflix instead because it feels nice and cosy and comforting. 
Sometimes it says that you are not a good enough musician and that you will never make it into this industry because it’s so hard and your mom told you it was not a real job anyway, so you give up before you even started, and eat this box of chocolates because it feels good during 5 minutes.
It tells you that you won’t be able to pay your rent next month if you leave this job you hate, so you are scared to chase this dream you have. So you take a loan and buy a car, because you need it to drive to your job everyday, that you can’t quit because you have to pay your loan.
 
Fear has many faces, it has many voices, and we all have them and we can’t really shut them up. But we can listen to what she has to say. And then we can decide that what we want is more important than the pain that we have to get through to get it. Some scientists made some research on the subjects and found that the main fear that is the master of all our fears is probably THE FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN.
And it makes so much sense O_O
 
Whatever happens, I will fail, make mistakes, get rejected, get hurt again and again, and then eventually die. So I should at least promise myself that I will make the most out of the time that was given to me here. I want to be an explorer of the unknown, even if yes, this is scary and uncomfortable, but the result worths it so much! And even if the result does not worth it after all, even if I fail, let it be in an epic way! I know I will hate myself even more knowing that I did not at least tried. I am often terrified but I don’t want to let these thoughts  define who I am, and more importantly getting in the way of who I want to be.
 
The idea of living a life not even trying is WAY SCARIER than any failure, rejection, mistake, shame!
And that’s probably the only secret there is to conquer fear.
 
I also know that all the crazy beautiful things I ever experienced always happened out of my comfort zone.
So here it is, my blog, a big scary thing, and I sincerely hope it will inspire you, so that we can grow together, and make sure we become closer everyday of the very best version of ourselves possible 
 
I would love to know your thoughts on this, do you think your fears keep you from growing? Are you on the contrary a conquerer? I could talk so much on this subject I find it so fascinating! 
 
Lots of love,
 
Pauline

what to do when you feel like giving up?

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Some days, it is just too much, you got rejected again, some close relatives made you doubt about your decision again, it’s raining, and I hope you did not watch the news on TV! There are 1000 reasons things can go wrong and we feel it is just too much for us to keep going on. 
First of all I want you to know that it is normal and it is alright :) I also want you to take a break and try to identify how you are feeling physically.

Exhausted right? Because you know when our bodies are tired, the brain certainly starts to get all messed up. We have to understand that we don’t have unlimited ressources when it comes to energy : it is just like a video game, your energy bar is empty and you still want to do more! It can’t work, so you have to take actions to refuel your energy bar before you are drained. Because if you are not aware of the signals your body is sending you, the brain will look for a way to make you stop! Yep, makes more sense! 

I am 12 days into the challenge (write one article a day for a month) and I can feel myself being more and more tired. And I can feel that my energy is not the same,I am frustrated, I feel like I am not getting anywhere, it takes all my energy and it definitely shows up on my motivation. And more important, it shows up on my belief that what I am doing matters, and is important. 


When the mind is a mess, I try to RECONNECT WITH MY BODY. It goes together so here ll the list of things that I have done one purpose to improve my mood the last two days :

TAKE A (real) REST
Like a real one, like sleeping for a full 8, 10, 12, 27 hours, a week, whatever you need! Due to our crazy modern  lifestyles, most of us are deprived of sleep constantly and this is not good for either our mental health and our bodies. 
If you are caught up into you mind, sometimes it’s just that you are too tired to have a constructed thought, and your brain start to go a bit craaazy. So just be mindful and understand when you are this kind of state, you don’t have to feel guilty or to try to change your mood, just go watch a movie, and sleep. 

MOVE YOUR BODY BABY! 
Go to sport, get back from work walking, go swim, get this muscles moving even for a little! It will send nice chemicals to your brain that will make him happy!

GET SOME NICE COMFORTING (maybe healthy) FOOD
I would treat myself with something healthy nice, home cooked, whatever! Something that will have good nutrients, and vitamins, delicious, but I try to avoid something rich that will have the opposite effect on my mood :) (but hey, do your best, and have your favorite cookies for dessert, they look delicious!) 

IF YOU CAN AFFORD IT : A MASSAGE/ A DAY AT THE SPA/ A HAMMAM
a massage can do wonder to release all your tension, I know it’s a big treat, but it will get you back on tracks for a few hours, and sometimes it worths the investment! (remember you were ready to give up anyway, so what’s the cost of  massage if you get back to work right after all refueled :p) 


As I am living in Bali right now, and I admit I did all these stuff pretty easily or for cheap, and I feel that changed everything concerning building this project. Being at home, I would have had a hard time getting back on track for sure, but because well being is so accepted here, it is just part of the lifestyle to take care of yourself. So I am realizing there is a guilt around all these stuff sometimes, we think we don’t have time or we don’t deserve such a treat like a massage for no reason, but in fact they are just vital for our balance!


And please PLEASE don’t make any decisions while you are exhausted. If you have a party and you drink alcool, you are not driving your car, because you know it is dangerous and not safe, you are going to be too slow and all messed up. Exhaustion has some similar effects on your brain, so please juste be aware of this and say : "brain, you are tired, I am not giving you the keys! I am walking you back home, put you in the shower and then put you in a comfy bed, because you can’t do anything else right now properly! »

Do you do these on purpose when you feel down, or do you get caught up into you mind too much? What are the things you do to take care of yourselves when you feel down? 

I am sending you a lot of love, and if you are feeling down right now, remember that everything is temporary, believe me I know it will get better, keep it up! :) 




How to stand out from the crowd

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Your work is finally good but you are afraid to take the leap to turn pro : here what you have to be focused on : 

Weird practical advices to set yourself apart from the crowd of photographers and be hired

If you have the project to turn pro photographer (or pro musicians, actor, anything!) the transition is hard : one of the worst thing most common we tell ourselves (and others will tell us FOR SURE so get ready) is :

« oh but there are already so many ____ (pick you dream job) there is no point, I can never make it work, there is no room left »

First of all, there is room for everyone. Even if the truth here is there are a lot of photographers that you think have a great portfolio. But on all of them I assure you than 90% of them don’t have these following qualities! An d this is GREAT for you because here is your chance to be different! 

So how to stand out when there is so much competition around :

- Have your own vision : (alright this one is not weird but I could not not include it)
No great photographer is ever hired because they have the most expensive newest camera : people want to buy their unique way to see the world! When I say Peter Lindergh, straight away I can see the mood of his portraits, he has his own unique signature and voice.
Find your niche, the thing that makes you awesomely unique! You might not know what it is yet, but the more you create, and the more defined your style will be. Hopefully there will be plenty of articles here to help you with this part! 

- Answer the damn phone, answer the damn email : be reactive
It seems like common sense but believe me, but it is not that easy to find. People wants to see you are reactive, that you care, not that you wait a week before answering their quotes. I remember being an art director, I was in charge of printing the magazine I created. it was a big budget, I asked for 12 quotes and I had two companies answer me… I realized that some people actually don’t really want to work this much! 

- Be nice and friendly :
Believe me, if someone is hesitating between two photographers (who have the same rate), they will choose the person that was a great time to be around last time! It’s not that hard to connect with people, be curious and open minded. If you are passionate about what you are doing, you will inevitably send a good energy and people will be attracted by your personality! I have a friend who is a photographer, and he always post silly stories on Instagram, he does weird funny self-portraits of himself, (as well as really goof photographs of course) and he told me that he got a commercial job because the guy who hired him found him funny compared to another photographer. True story. 

- Deliver the damn pictures!
So you get a call because some guy found your work really unique, you made the effort to answer the phone, you put on your nicest clothes and smile, you rocked the photoshoot : THIS IS NOT THE MOMENT TO DROP THE BALL!! Deliver the pictures in time! You can’t imagine the number of photographer that are just behind on their retouching. Even really good organized nice well paid one! Finish the job properly with love! 

So if you are a good photographer but you also do this, trust me, people are more likely to call you back because they know you are going to deliver a great service! it is how I got hired by the most beautiful palaces in paris : I answer my phone when they call me, I show up, I am never late, clients like me, and I deliver nice pictures on time. And you might not believe me, but I have a such a hard time finding someone to replace me when I can’t be there myself. 

It’s about being professional, and even if there are THOUSANDS  of photographers out there, the competition is not as tough as you think. Especially when you put a minimum effort and love in what you are doing! If that sounds like common sense to you, that’s great news, it means you are ready! No more excuses! :) :) 

(I want you to notice that gear does not matter here! And if you need a special piece of equipment for a job, just rent it!)

LOVE TO ALL! I would love to know your opinion about this!!

How I became a professional (paid) photographer in 5 steps

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So one day I decided I was done working as a designer and I decided I would finally live my dream and become a full-time photographer. Here is how I did it, and how it can help you do it as well :

I didn’t study photography : I studied graphic design, and everyone reaction is « ooohw but that’s the saaaame! » and I say yep it’s close, I do have a strong visual culture, and it certainly helps. But I had no idea of how to put the rights settings on my camera, I never retouched an image in Photoshop (though I was a superstar at removing getty and shutter stock copyrights logos thank to my many interships in advertising agency -_- ) and above all the HUGE pain in the ass scary part was to learn LIGHT, especially STUDIO LIGHTS

1 - GET CURIOUS

So just before I quit my designer job (this is another story) I was spending half of my time looking at photography blogs. And my constant question was HOW DID THEY DO IT 
Because when I was photographing something, clearly it just did not look like the same, no matter the love I was putting in it. I did not understand what was their secret behind the mood I was loving in their images WHAT WAS THEIR SECRET 

Especially looking at photographs done with studio lights and speed lights, these one gave me such a headache I WANTED TO KNOW HOW IT WAS DONE

I still ask myself this question now when I see something I love, and most of the time I understand right away how it’s done. On the negative side, knowing all the behind the scene, the magic is kinda gone now, everything has a price :) 

so from this obsession I started to look for information
I was tricked by the beauty of the photographs by Joey L : and because he is a chill guy he had a blog and it gave me a good starting point to understand his work and his vision. then I came across the strobist website : so for those who don’t know strobism off camera flash david hobby
speedlights . 

2 - ONLINE RESSOURCES

I did not want to go back to school and understiood I could find everything online to set me up! (remember it was 5/6 years ago, it was not as obvious as it is right now!) 
I would watch some videos in the morning and practice in the afternoon

My favorite ones (at that time but they are all still awesome) I am not sponsored, I just love them :) 
 
- Creative Live for just almost everything
- The Strobist for learning to use off-camera speedlights as awesome studio lights
- Phlearn for Photoshop (but beautiful Photoshop, not kitschy ugly stuff)
- Sue Bryce for Photography and the business aspect of it


3 - MACGYVER STUDIO LIGHTS FOR CHEAP

So I was watching all these videos talking about soft boxes, beauty dish, reflectors. For me it was out of the question to buy something I did not know how to use, I did not even understand why I needed these stuff so I decided to build them from scratch. Basically I had every single modifier on the market as a cardboard version!

Here a few examples :) 

Light modifiers :
- A diffusion panel with plastic plumbing pipes and the cheapest Ikea white curtains as a diffuser
- A soft box with cardboard and a survival blanket glued inside + curtains for diffusion
- Damn it I swear I did not understand why people were using reflectors so much! Same here, cardboard as a base. I had a white side with paper, the other side was survival blanket, and I even made a golden side! 
- A ring light with a stripe of LED lights (cheap LED lights are AWESOME) 
- A snoot? EASY! Cardboard and gaffer tape of course! 

Cardboard reflectors and my beloved homemade softbox &lt;3

Cardboard reflectors and my beloved homemade softbox <3

Backdrops :
- A white wall (that often means moving the furnitures a lot!)
- I painted fabric (that was given to me) to have different colors
- I also used a pair of black sheet (that someone gave to me as well!) and I taped it directly to the wall ahah (not my best idea, don’t do it, OR be ready to paint your wall after :) ) 

I finally bought a Photek soft lighter soft box after 3 years, and I got my proper paper backdrops just a year ago (and a friend gave them to me ahem, though I could not live without them anymore) 

I got my first paid shoots with this and i NEVER EVER EVER had anyone tell me « oh but this is not a real soft box! people don’t know, people don’t care, they all came to me because they loved my photographs looked, not the way my « studio » looked :) 

Photographed in 2014 with my homemade cardboard softbox and black sheets as a background

Photographed in 2014 with my homemade cardboard softbox and black sheets as a background

4 - TRY STUFF AND EXPERIMENT

I had no idea what I wanted to do especially : as you know there are many types of photographers : you can do landscapes, portraits, fashion, culinary, ANYTHING 

Most of the time I reproduced a cool technique I saw some other photographer teaching, and little by little after a few months, I realized I was attracted more and more by the same kind of result. I kinda found my style like this! 


5 - INVOLVE OTHER PEOPLE 

I would team up with a friend some days and we would be very nerdy and try lighting and stuff. Basically it sounded exactly like this : « Hey what do you think it does if I press this button? OoooooH AWESOME! » 
Also I photographed ALL my friends. When I didn’t have any friend available I photographed myself, and that’s the main reason I started to do self portrays. 

And when the friends of my friends saw their pictures on Facebook, they started to contact me and that was it : 

I GOT PAID TO PHOTOGRAPH PEOPLE!  (YAY!

Why perfection is a pain in the ass

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What if we decided to let go of this massive struggle that is the quest for perfection? 

I decided it would be a perfect subject to start this blog! As you can see, the website is just not ready, I don’t have a logo, I don’t even have the good domain name! But my friend challenged my to write and publish one article everyday in march, so I don’t really have a choice : honoring my word is more important than anything else. So let’s do this, even if it’s faaaaar from being perfect :) 

So why is perfection such a problem in our lives? 
I discovered there is even a fancy greek word for this : 
ATELOPHOBIA (so now you can look like a pretentious know-it-all at parties, yep don’t thank me!) Which means literally the fear of imperfection : it’s is the fear of not being good enough. Sounds familiar? It looks not like much said like this but it leads to a lot of real troubles : anxiety, depression, and even suicide in the worst cases. 

I know that the quest for perfection can make our life like hell : we feel like we are not good enough, that we are not ready yet to publish this artwork, that we are to fat to deserve to be loved, too old to learn this new skills. We are just not ready. To the point we don’t even start anywhere. It becomes this massive block. I don’t need to remember you that almost all the signals from the world we are living in are remembering us on a daily basis how imperfect we are. For some of us it’s our parents, it’s our grades from school, it’s the influencers on social medias, the thin young girls on magazines, the advertising trying to sell you stuff, anything, just pick your favorite one! 

I can’t tell you how many people told me « I really want you to photograph me but I will come when I loose 5 kilos! ». (kinda 10 pounds) These people usually never come for a photoshoot : they are waiting to be the perfect version of themselves which will never exist, because there is always going to be something they don’t like. It’s the eternal internal fight between seeking what you don’t have, or realizing what you already have and be grateful for it. 

So as a result, we procrastinate, we think we are looking for perfection where in fact we waste our time not doing the stuff we love and not living the life we want. We are looking for the perfect conditions (which will never exist of course)

As a creator, we are first in line when it comes to this damn fear of imperfection : it’s hard to know if our idea is good, if it worth the time and energy to create it, sometimes it is so hard to know when our creation is just over (I swear I could spend 18 more hours on retouching any picture!). Sometimes we never finish what we start, sometimes we finish but never share it to the world, sometimes we never let go. And most of the time we don’t even start this new piece or this new project, because we are so afraid to fail that this fear is paralyzing us. We’d rather do nothing than doing something incorrectly.

Ahah as I am writing  and realizing that I am so guilty of this! There is not a moment I don’t get terrified before a creative photoshoot, I fear I will suck, that I will waste the time of my model, that I won’t be able to deliver what I imagined. 


Are we doomed forever? What tangible things can we do to release a bit of pressure : 

The best advice I can give is to set yourself a deadline : 
But a real one, with real grown-up consequences. It’s easy to respect deadlines when you have clients and a project to deliver, but when it comes to personal project and creation, it is another whole procrastination story. For example, because my friend is helping me in the process of creating this blog, I just don’t want to disappoint her : she told me I would have to write one article every day, so I am doing it. And trust me, if it was just for me, I would be sleeping right now or watching Netflix (or both at the same time!!) But I have to write this before the end of the day!! So I am grateful to have her supporting me here, because this would’t exist! 

So the second one is : find yourself someone you are accountable for :

A coach, a mentor, someone who will support you and encourage you to go to the right direction. From personal experience I wouldn’t recommend a close friend or family, because it’s hard to get an objective feedback on what we are doing when feelings are involved. And most of the time people that are not working in a creative industry won’t have any idea what to say to you to help you. I remember my mum would always be silent and say something like “oh. it looks “real” - what do you mean real? -mmh like it looks like a real photography from a magazine - NO KIDDING THIS IS MY JOB FOR LIKE TEN YEARS DAMNIT!” (I never said I was the most patient perfect person ever :D ) . Surround yourself by a positive tribe of people who are respecting your vision, who are understanding it and encouraging you work. 
For the challenge of one article a day, I am actually not by myself : we are three entrepreneurs doing it (the others have to publish one video a day, not easy either!!) We share a group on Facebook, and I find this HIGHLY motivating. We are pushing each other, we share our struggles, and whatever happens I know there are at least two people who are expecting to read my work everyday! I just don’t want to disappoint them, and I don’t feel alone in this adventure anymore :) 

I would say the last one is to be more mindful, and to challenge our vision of perfection :

Is spending 6 more months on this really help us reach our goals? I am happy to accept how imperfect this website is at the moment, it has plenty of time to grow, it will change and evolve with me. I acknowledge the fact that my english is not perfect, but it’s alright, it does not matter : what matters is that I finally have a place to share my experiences with all of you, and that maybe it will help you somewhere in your life. This is more important to me than having a perfect logo (and that’s a passionate designer saying this!!) I acknowledge my fear of failing, I am not especially pushing it away, and it is here for sure, but I don’t let it take control of my life. “oh hey it’s you again! Yep I see you, and yep I am listening to you, and yep I understand why you are afraid but nope you are not in charge!”.

I am letting you on one of my favorite quote ever ever EVER from Chuck Palahniuk (the guy who wrote Fight Club <3 )


“The air will always be to filled with something. Your body too sore or tired. Your father too drunk. Your wife too cold. You will always have some excuse not to live your life.”


― Chuck Palahniuk, Haunted

Do you recognize yourself this article? Do you think perfection is blocking you from starting something? What would you do if failing was totally alright? I am really curious and would love to know your experience hehe :) 

LOVE TO ALL ET PLEIN DE BISOUS!

Pauline